The journey, not the destination

I'm offended that Twilight was paired with anything as precious as sports. IN saying that, I am going to pretend that Those first two sentences don't exist, because yay baseball!
So if I were to choose someone from the Rays, out of loyalty- I think I'd be hard pressed between Zobrist or Bartlett. They both got the defense, the offense, and are great in the clutch.
But I think overall, right now I'm totally pulling for Joe Mauer. He's ridiculous.

I have been meaning to finish these for a while, however it's taken longer than expected. Just some icons from the Alex/Izzie wedding the other night! Such a beautiful wedding. Yeah, I cried, it pulls at the heartstrings!

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Credit is much appreciated!

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I know this show hasn't premiered yet, but I'm excited to finally see it! Here are some icons to hold you over; sorry, I don't have many screencaps to go by!

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*Please let me know if you think I 've forgotten you. I apologize immensely, it was completely unintentional.

( This might contribute to Vanessa’s hate of love letters. But she would never fully admit that. )

So, I don't typically think about death in general, I'm actually in big denail mode most of the times towards people's mortality, however I do know what I would like to have done with my body once I die. Hopefully, my organs will be useful and they can get donated to whomever may need them. Then I want my body buried in a natural coffin, so that it all ends up disintegrating into the earth with any pesticides or gross chemicals. I don't want to be cremated; urns freak me out.

Elf is my favorite holiday movie. I don't need redeemable fathers, or Christmas trial, or a near-death experience. I just need a grown man dressed as an elf and enough quotes to get me through the rest of the year. That's all.

The first music album that I ever owned was the Boyz to Men cd II. I got it for my birthday from one of my friends, before I even had a CD player to listen to it on! But I wanted it so bad regardless... I think that Boyz to Men is something that can never get old- it's one of the best RnB albums. Who doesn't want to listen to "On Bended Knee" or "I'll make love to you."

I most definitely watched the Superbowl the other night. Not only for the commercials, but for the actual football game! I watched the game with a bunch of my friends and family that all cme over to my place to watch it. Fun times had by all!

Wilson Phillips, the Monkees, and New Kids on the Block all entertained me when I was 5.

I don't really watch a lot of tv. I mean, I grew up on tv. My parents were those parents, the ones that sit you in front of the television set all day long- didn't really let me go out in play in fear that I was going to be abducted- I would like to say it's because they love me. Or because they are completely neurotic. But seriously, I learned how to speak English by watching Sesame Street! How sad does that make me feel? But between work, school, sorority life, extracurriculars, studying, etc. my life doesn't really call for much TV. But now that I am a college grad, I just might have the time for finding out what all the hype is over certain shows. Don't get me wrong, I do watch TV, just not like I did when I was growing up. And I seem to miss a lot of trends the first time around. If I were to give a quick recap of my weekly viewing schedule:
Sundays- Nothing. Except when Entourage is on. And The 4400 over the summer.
Mondays- Nothing except for Dancing with the Stars when it's on.
Tuesdays- Law and Order:SVU. LOVE IT!
Wednesdays- um... I try to catch Bones, that's a really good show. And I saw my second episode ever of One Tree Hill the other day, I think I am going to be sticking to that one. Remember about the whole catching onto trends too late?
But nothing, NOTHING, compares to Thursdays. And after that, I don't even think there is anything on TV.
Thursdays are the best day of the week. Thursdays have it all. Thursdays have my two favorite shows, thursdays have the only comedies I watch, thursdays even have the show I didn't get around to watching this year. Thursdays are my anti-drug.
On the comedic front, The Office and Scrubs are probably the 2 funniest shows ever. I have been a fan of both shows since their inceptions. I know some people don't find that kind of humor- well, humorous- but I sure do. They are ingenious.
Man, I miss Supernatural. I was an avid believer in the Supernatural last season. This season, I have just not gotten around to see it. There is only so much a girl can do. I am pretty sure it was on a different night last season, so that may be a part of it. But thank goodness for TV on DVD. The 21st century is a big advocate in giving us losers a chance to catch up (much like what I plan on doing for One Tree Hill).
Now, I have known to mention a few times how I truly believe that tivo is the best invention of the 21st century. It really is. To me, there are two shows that warrant Tivo status at all times on my tivo. Sure I tape the office and scrubs, since I am usually watching other things. But if there is a malfunction one day, and they don't tape, that's ok with me. I tend to get over it. But honestly, if I ever were to miss an episode these two shows, I would probably not be able to get up the next day. Grey's Anatomy. ER. Two medical dramas about crazy patients and the crazy, overly hormonal doctors that take care of them. Everyone knows not to bother me anytime from 9-11.
Grey's Anatomy is an addiction, it really is, even with all the nonsense they have put me through this season. My nerves can't really take all this anymore. But that's for another time. ER- I have grown up on ER. Literally. I started watching ER on the very first episode when I was nine, yes nine, years old. Like I said, my parents were rather lax. I have been there at it's prime, all it's highs and lows and goodbyes, all the disasters and tears and everything. I won't know what to do with myself when it ends. But once again, that is for another time. Two very similar, but entirely different shows, but both still so entertaining. Do you know how HARD my night was two weeks ago?! A 2 hour Grey's Anatomy- meaning that it already cuts entirely into ER, but then ER has to go and start 10 minutes early... and it was the wedding! And now this week coming up, Grey's is extended another 15 minutes for the wedding, cutting into ER time again! An ER show that you cannot miss the first 15 minutes of, but a Grey's episode you can't miss the last 15 minutes of... and see why tivo is the best invention ever?
What do others watch on regular basis? What is constantly on their tivo? Makes me wonder...

I have opinions. I don't always voice them, but they are there. I also love analyzing things. I hate it actually, but I am an over-analyzer. Yeah so sue me. But since I have opinions and analyses and hopes and wants and dreams, why not put them down and maybe share them.

Grey's Anatomy- "Walk on Water"
Now, I could start at the very first episode to ever air of grey's anatomy and analyze and opinionize (is that even a word?) from there on- but I don't have the patoence for that. So yes, I am starting in a rando spot- the end of season 3. (Wait til you see what I have to say about ER!) But this episode was the start of a 3-part story arc. AMAZING. These writers, producers, directors, actors are ingenious. It always baffles me how a story like Grey's can be made. It's so intricate and windy and filled with metaphors, and well- dark and twisty. You need to keep your eyes and ears open at all times because if Doctor A wore a red shirt in the first episode of the season, that could come around and mean something big during February sweeps. But I digress. You will see that I do that a lot.
Meredith was in the bathtub according to Derek trying to "drown" herself. He saved her, he was her knight in shining whatever. But I have a feeling that after this whole disaster thing, there are going to be a few obstacles to overcome with them. She practically told Derek without really telling Derek that she was being smothered. She's not a happy camper you guys. Neither is Izzie. Which makes me sad because she is my favorite.
Which leads me to George. Love him. Especially this season he has shone moreso than anyone I think. Anyway, Izzie. Yes she is my favorite femaile, but even I am getting tired, upset, whatever with her feelings toward George/Callie, the O'Malleys. I like the new O'Malleys. I like them A LOT. More and more with every episode that passes. So why can't she finally just agree to disagree and treat her best friend with respect (I am bot even going to go into the last scene in Wishin and Hopin when he actually stands up for Callie- yet anotheer reason why I love him). I mean I get what is going on with her, and how she needs George as a support. I just hate feeling how hypocritical she is coming across. But if I remember correctly, she was the one that told George to go to Callie if that's what makes him happy- cuz life is short. Obviously she didn't mean marriage- but hey.
Which leads me to Mrs. Callie O'Malley. I think that that little exchange between her and Bailey is what begins the wheels to turn in her head regarding her relationship with George. They never had a problem really when they dated, but why now? I think it is coming down to knowing how to separate personal relations from professional, and knowing when it is ok to cross those lines once in a while. I feel this is the beginning of breakdown in communication for the both of them, coming from Callie's side, and George struggling with how to handle it. But, I like them together so all will be well.
The ferryboat disaster was so well done. And if it's not foreshadowing what is going to happen in Meredith's life (or maybe even Meredith and Derek) then my 4 years of HS English did nothing for me. I am not going to say what I think it could signify. Everyone just has to come up with their own theories. I love how each of the interns are pulled out of their elements and are dealing with cases that complement their personalities, feelings, weaknesses. Meredith and the little girl (who I think is real) signifies the way she sees herself and can expalin the attachment to her. Izzie trying to keep a man alive who is barely surviving- and not feeling too confident in herself. I think that it would break her so much more if she were to lose her first real patient since coming back to work. And that man's friends were driving me crazy! Puttintg all that pressure on poor Izzie, making her feel even less helpful. You could tell she was at the brink when she didn't want to hear about the man's kids.
Alex! Alex is my favorite male, and I completely fell for his character even more tonight. His stpry was absolutely perfect for him. Saving that lady from the pylon, not giving up on her. Wanting to be with her in the surgery, and forming a connection with her. That woman trusts him. He displayed the side of him that I feel only special circumstances could bring out (Izzie). He needs to go into gynie. He has to.
Christina kinda stole that patient from my Alex, but that is ok because she ended up not scrubbing in either. I love how she wants to tell Meredith before anyone else finds out. It's totally a girl thing- every girl. Not just Christina and Meredith. It's that bond thing, and girls can get highly upset when they feel betrayed. So the fact that Burke spilled to Derek which means that Mark heard and told everyone is funny to me- because they reminded me of girls more than Christina/Meredith. Not being able to keep a secret and all. The scene of her trying to tell Meredith the news was to a T. I do feel bad that she was the only one left in the hospital, and then later not able to scrub in- it's like she is already suffering and losing out on things because of the impending marriage.
Which takes me back to George. He made a promise to that lady to find her son. Wasn't he the same intern that made a promise to a patient's family or something in the beginnig of the series? Burke gave his speech about God being the only one that can make those kinds of promises, and now he is making promises again. I really will be heartbroken for George if he can't find the boy at all or if he does and the little boy died. That would kill me. And he is trying to call out for Callie for something, but she tells him that she can't be his wife right now. Not a good idea! This might blow up to be a big problem- because he seems as if he really needed some support from her for a minute and she could have potentially hurt him. What is in store for the newlyweds?!?!
Lastly, I know I probably skipped over a lot. But I need to talk about the elevator scene. Priceless. I love how the 4 attendings have been interacting more and more, and how the writers are finding ways to get them together in the same room at the same time. They all have a great dynamic. Addison was so sympathetic to the Chief, actually having something in common. And her responses to the 3 guys still makes me laugh.
We were left with Meredith falling OVER into the water. I am surprised that it happened in the very first part of this story- but I am glad that they ended it the way they started it (I say you can never have too many metaphors). Will Derek really be the Knight and shiny whatever? Will anyone even notice? Is Izzie going to lose her patient? Will Jane Doe lose her baby? Will George give Callie the silent treatment. Should I dye my hair? I hate waiting.

It's a new year, and that means there are 365 days that you get to make the most out of 2007. The longer it takes you, the less time you have to screw up and fix it. But it's ok, cuz next year will creep up on you when you least expect it, and you'll soon realize that this year was a total blur. It's also a big time for resolutions. I personally try to make them just because it's fun to hear what everyone else is doing, but I always make my resolutions so incredibly difficult for myself. In the end it;s worth it because of the growing process, but it's hard to figure out in what direction you need to go to be successful at that damned resolution. Some of them aren't so bad. Have a real relationship with my boyfriend. Go out on a date once a week. Spend quality time together with my boyfriend once a week. See a pattern forming? But then there are some that are more meaningful to me. Not be so passive. Find more self-confidence. Figure out what I want out of life and finally go after it. But my #1 resolution for the year is Passion. Yes it's amazing how one simple word could completely turn my life around. After I figured out what I wanted in all aspects of my life was passion, I have felt a little at ease with myself. Like I finally have some sort of direction to go in. Now, it's not that I am lacking in passion, I am a very passionate person, what I am lacking in are outlets to display my passion in. Or at least have more things around to be passionate about. I am very passionate with anything that I put my mind to, my family, friends, hobbies, but I think that I have to find a way to extrovert that passion instead of it being more introverted like it used to be.

"Passion: There are some things in your life that catch your eye, and then, there are those that catch your heart. Pursue those." ~ Source unknown.

When I care about something, I am hardcore. No matter what it be. Whether it's my favorite shows, music, movies, shoes, people, causes- whatever the case may be I am passionate. There is a big difference between being obsessed and being passionate. Obsessed is an action. It can get unhealthy in excess, it can get you stared at with weird looks. But being passionate isn't just an action, it's a feeling. You stand up for it, you learn everything you can about it to educate yourself. It makes you feel good in the end of the day. That's what I am- I am passionate about the things I love in my life. And I'm ok with that. So if I ever rant on and on about something- just remember that everyone has their thing. I mean, take guys for example. They can sit there and spew out random stats for any game ever played in any sport. Or they can just go over the 1958 world series from beginning to end. That's passion- for the most part. Just because I don't know who the starting forward was for the Chicago Bulls in 1988 doesn't mean I can't tell you how many seasons Donna and David were together in some way on 90210 (9 out of 10). What can I say, I'm passionate. Right?

...People know me. Ok well, that was my movie quote for the day. I love Ron Burgundy, I want to meet him.

Since I don't really know what I am going to do with the rest of my life, it gets kind of difficult to get motivated in regards to school. I feel like I am always studying, but at the same time I feel like I am never doing anything. Where is this rant coming from you ask? From the 5 chapters I am currently taking a break from reading in Drugs and behavior. But why, it's not like I know if it will ever come in handy. I mean, I'm going to be a rockstar anyway.

Oh and on a side note- where are the good men? Like the ones that are in all those amazing romantic love stories- like the notebook, a walk to remember, things like that. I always seem to get the friend of the main character that can never seem to get it right.

The work week is pretty much over for me, weekend here I come! I am in the process of getting one of my halloween costumes together. I am going to be a gold digger for work on tuesday. I need to find an all gold and yet work appropriate costume. And i am painting all of my props gold at the moment. Other than that, my thursday night is pretty much a waste. I could have gone out tonight, but I needed to study. So now I am here.

I am a little upset that ER was a rerun tonight. I like they aren't going on hiatus anymore, cuz that totally sucks, but reruns suck too. Especially since they pick one of the saddest episodes in the history of ER to replay. That's ok, Grey's anatomy was a rerun as well.

Do you know how much I love tivo? With all the talk of tv, it might seem that is all I do. But the truth of the matter is I rarely have time to watch tv- hence the reason why i love tivo so much. It really is my favorite invention of the 21st century. Why sit down and watch a show for an hour when i can watch it for 40 minutes, even less if I am able to fast forward through some boring dialogs. In the end it's all about conserving time.

Now to check on my gold, it might just be dry by now!

So, this is it. I have finally succumbed to the phenomenon of online journals. Don't ask me why, maybe just looking for something to do. Seems like something that could come in handy in the future. I know I will mainly be writing to myself, but I guess writing down things- or nowadays typing things out makes things concrete in a sense... and i'm out!